Anti-Deserving

I almost forgot what else I was gonna say.  I don't want to be hypnotized into submission nor be like everyone else.  Well, I want to be like others in some ways, and everyone has something in common..  I'm finding Late Boomers are encouraging me in secret to like trash my life to Early Boomers, like they don't give a care about anyone, can do whatever they want, are there for show as *** toys who some don't really do anything interesting.  Maybe, only people like Ellen DeGeneres do because she's part Jewish and like rushes to be attractive.  The same thing goes with people with Irish in the U.S., I think.  I don't think part Irish people necessarily rush, though.